So, this is my first blog post from my new laptop.  I can never thank my friend enough for this.  It is not a super fancy one but it is more than enough for what I use it for.  I am still hurting a bit from my fall this past Monday.  It's hard because if I sit still as the doctor suggested, I get stiff and it seems to hurt so much more. (Squirrel moment:  It's hard to type on this laptop.  I am too accustomed to raised keys I suppose.)  But it seems to be getting better.  It was just such a shock to hear that I am already in the beginning stages of Osteoporosis. I am only 46 for crying out loud!  I shouldn't be there already.  But at least I know so that I can take steps to prevent it from progressing.  The other shock was stepping on the scale.  I have broken the 200 pound threshold.  Not by much but by enough.  That was a real surprise.  I have got to do something.  I am going to do a modified Atkins diet, just start cutting carbs and sugars.  My doctor has wanted me to lose weight for forever.  I have got to try to do something.  I am twice what I weighed when I got out of high school.  So I will be watching my foods and eating a lot more meats and nuts.  So, keep me in your prayers and hopefully I can get this weight off. I've been doing a lot of praying recently.  It has seemed so much like God has abandoned me these past couple of years.  So much has happened.  My divorce, being laid off, the whole fiasco with Morgan and what happened to her, my truck being stolen, Mom's accident, having to move her in with me, and now this fall.  They say that The Lord will not put more on you than you can handle. I just know that it seems like He has tried to bend me double.  I think that is why I've been questioning so much.  It didn't seem like there was any point to what He was putting me through. But this past couple of years has shown me that I can be resourceful, I am resilient, and I can take care of myself and don't need someone to take care of me.  I have been blessed with that knowledge.  I still don't see a problem with burning a candle while I pray; it helps me to focus my thoughts and my intent.  I have been reading my Bible a lot lately and that is helping. 

Doing my best to try and stay focused on getting my housecleaned up and organized.  That is one of my resolutions for New Year's.  I have to get this house cleaned up.  It is embarrassing for e to have people over.  My friend Leo said not to worry about how "disorganize" house it, but it does bother me.  I may not have the nicest place to live in, and it may need repairs, but it can at least be clean.  It is just a matter of too many people, too much stuff, and not enough space.  I want to change out the bed in my son's room to bunk beds, a twin over a futon, so that my brother can stop sleeping on the couch and my son can get to bed at a decent hour. That way he can get the sleep he needs  and  not be up all night. Of course, if I can find a place large enough for all of us to live, it would be a moot point.  They would each have their own rooms.  But I am not sure when that will be.  I have to get finances under control and start saving money for deposits and such.  Just have to get things worked out.  God will provide the place for us when it is time. 

Well, my medicine is starting to kick in - starting to feel a bit loopy.  So I am going to conclude this for now.  Talk to you all later!